Depression...

In the weeks before I had been feeling depressed about....well....nothing specifically I guess, just life in general. I've always heard about depression in the media and had really no clue what it was about. For me atleast, it is a mental disease that causes one to procrastinate, indulge in bad habits, not care or be inspired by anything impeticular and sometimes just plain suicidal thinking how worthless a life of repetition and suffering can be. A lot of it comes from boredom and staying at home with nothing to do to keep my mind busy since I've grown tired of most the games I can play on my computer with limited RAM and processor resources. In addition to that I am rather lazy unless I am required to do something and there is an incentive in it for me. Also I don't feel so hopeful about reaching my goals of attaining a bachelors of science in electrical engineering or physics because after spending so much time doing calculations on the mathematics of the universe, my goals seem like such small feats. Maybe its just a phase or maybe its because a lot of people in my age group have self esteem, identity, school, and work problems to deal with and might also be the fact that we study Hamlet in highschool which is so filled with tragedy and underlying "truth" and moral about how real life is.**** Going to take my two dogs Ricky(the dingo eared dog) and Pico(the black & white Shitzhu with a bite) for a walk and start assembling an application for the British Columbia Institute of Technology(BCIT) to hopefully get in on the waiting list for their industrial electricity program sometime in the next few years.****